Maybe it's not okay anymore, as a Christian, to say 'I'm burned out', 'I can't do this anymore', 'I'm tired'; 'this is not my job.' - to continue in this line of thinking. To say, 'I can't go back there, Lord - to that same place, that same group, the same cycle of sin.'
I get irritated with myself, and this lack of faith, like - do I really believe nothing is impossible for You?
Do I really believe that You do new things? That there is new mercy for me here? I'm asking the One Who breathes LIFE, Who makes dead things alive... dry bones, ashes & phoenix-type stuff, the One Who couples brokenness w/ beauty, weakness w/ strength... Who resurrects the dead - even the dead in me? Who are You, and what can You do? Remind me again, because my attitude needs a 180*.
The truth is, I am tired... but You never sleep!
I do get burned out, but You never stop burning. A flame in the dark, You never stop creating, never stop imagining, but at the same time never change; You never stop breathing fresh vision into Your leaders & people, if we would just stop to listen.
'I can't', but You can.
'I won't go back there', because You're already walking in ahead of me, guiding & protecting me, a fierce, bright Light.